Follow up

If you missed my post last week, I was blogging about praying to get closer to God. Trying to get past that sense of great distance between us, and trying to understand so many questions in my mind about him. I have since continued to pray that prayer and in some down time have been reading up on some of my questions. One of the questions that I have always had was why God would allow miscarriages or abortions to take place? Why would he even allow the pregnancy to occurr in the first place. While researching the subject it really enlightened me and hit home with my own personal experience. A couple years before my wife and I had my first child(Jadyn) we had gone through a miscarriage of our own. At the time my wife was pretty upset about the situation. We tried to comfort in the fact that God was in control of our lives and it wasn't meant to be. I for one really did believe that, but part fo me was also kind of relieved at the time. I was scared to be a parent and wasn't sure I was ready for such a life changing event. I secretly wondered if that had something to do with Gods decision to take our baby. I have thought over time what it would have been like to have had our first child back then. What would he or she have been like, would we still have had both Jadyn and Luke, how different would our lives be? I never really thought about if we would reunite in heaven some day. Jeremiah 1:5 states "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you. Before you were born I set you apart, I appointed you as a prophet to the nations". Psalms 139:13-16 states For you created my inmost being, you knit me together in my mothers womb....All the days ordained for me were written in your book before any of them came to be. If god does decide how many marbles we have(as Mark Beeson puts it) than he must have a reason beyond our understanding of why he brings these babies home so early. I pray that all of the parents will take comfort in the fact that God is with our children and they never had to feel fear or pain in this world and are enjoying the kingdom with the perfect father. I also pray that when the time comes and I am called upon that I will know my child in heaven. I read somewhere that we will basically be ageless in heaven, but also that we will be recognizable. Do you think we will just know our child? Will he/she still be a baby? These questions are all so intriguing to me. Whatever God puts us through it is to bring glory to him and to bring us closer to him. I believe that although I still have so many questions, I am definitely closer to God because of them.

Tids and Tats

Ready for a great weekend!

This should be a very exciting weekend! The best football game of the season is upon us, get to spend time with the ones I love most, and am looking forward to the message this weekend at church. What more could someone ask for?
This has to be the year that the Irish break the streak. It has been 7 years of too many whippings from the trojans. Jimmy Siete is primed for a statement win. There is too much on the line in this game to not come out swinging. If the Irish lose, everything that we have going for us will be deflated. All of the steam and buzz around the team will be gone, people will blow us off as the same team we have been for the last 10-15 years, and recruiting will suffer setting us back for the forseeable future. On the other hand, a win could solidify our season to this point. They could show the world that we are for real and are back on track to be a national power once again. It is time for Jimmy to throw us on his back and leads us to victory! The only thing that concerns me is not having Michael Floyd on the field for this one. How can you defend Michael Floyd on one side, Golden Tate on the other, and Kyle Rudolph up the middle? Somebody is going to have to step up to keep the double teams from Tate. My prodiction......ND wins 30-21!!
I am also excited about our new series at church. It is good to feel that way again after a few weeks of questioning the direction of our church. We weren't able to go last weekend, but I did watch the service online and was refreshed. The message was about the distance we feel between us and God at times and how we can work to bring us together. It is funny how God works. Sometimes I feel that my wife would like me to have more of a passion for my religion. I do believe in God and know that Jesus Christ died for our sins and is our savior. I had not gone to church for awhile, but always had a relationship with God. I just have never really been open about it or talked much about it. I do love God, but it does feel distant. Sometimes I do wonder where God is in this world. God has blessed me with a loving family, a good job, and roof over my head, but when you watch the news or read the newspaper everyday you begin to question. Not questioning that there is a God, but why does he allow for all of these things to happen? Why does there have to be so many tragic ways of leaving this world? Why can't it just be that when the good lord is ready to call you home, you just go? Why does there have to be diseases, car accidents, war, hunger, murders etc. The last couple weeks I began to pray to God for him to help me love him more. I always hear that you are suppose to love God first and foremost, but I don't know how to do that. My love pales in comparison to my love for my wife and children. I try to live my life the way I believe God would want me to live, and know that God loves me and has reason and purpose for everything in my life, but I was asking for help to find that passion that I see from so many people. Then I watch the service from last week and it is basically talking about the same thing I had been praying about. It just reminds me of the movie signs when the say What if there isn't any coincedences? Just thought I would share a little tesimony with you.

Just wondering...

Why is that the majority of the radio stations have to have a "Flashback Lunch". Every channel I turn to is either playing hits of yesterday, lunchtime 80's, or flashback 90's. What about today?? I like to listen to the radio during my lunch. This seems to be the only time I really get to listen to the radio much with work, family, and more work. Is it too much to ask to play some current music? Thank goodness for ESPN radio! On a second note, what is it that makes people so quick to point out somebody elses flaws or errors? Like they don't make any mistakes themselves. There is nothing more irratating than someone that is always looking for a chance to jump down somebody's back. On a good note, this weekend is halloween camping weekend! This has become a family tradition. Hopefully the weather will hold up and we won't freeze our jiblets in our tent(at least me and Luke). Nothing better than spending some quality time with the family enjoying a campfire and the great outdoors. And for my final thought.....ALL HAIL JIMMY SIETE!

Well today I have finally taken the plunge. I am now an official blogger. I am not sure what I am hoping to accomplish by blogging but hopefully somebody can relate to what I have to say. I hope to touch on many subjects including my daily life, family, sports, entertainment etc. I don't have much time today so I will just share one small tip of advice for you. Do not rent the movie Management!!!! It stars Steve Zaun and Jennifer Anniston so I thought it might not be too bad. After 30 minutes of boredom my wife and I decided to turn it off. It probably ranks as the second worst movie I have ever seen slightly behind Supernova. I had been on a pretty good movie picking streak before this one. Hopefully I will start another good streak soon.